the days go by, with no time to blog

I know everyone moans about lack of time when at uni, work and play getting in the way but I make use of that excuse.... since october so I found out today.

So basically I havent blogged for ages and I have been working all term. Dont get me wrong I have had every opportunity to chill, relax and do my work but Im not the best at organising my time, and I am the first to complain and moan. This ends now, simple grow up man!

People come into your life and they leave, fact - "deal". Get over it, dust yourself off and meet new people. With the amount of people in this world there will always be new people to meet, enemies to make and friends to cherish. So why have I felt lonely somtimes this year then? When I am at a uni with at least 17,500 students why can I not find someone to go with me out to parties. The honest answer I dont know.

I think Im a likeable chap, always willing to go out and meet new people but I have my own priorities in my life. Fair enough everyone does whether it is religion, family, uni work like me. Doesnt seem to get anyone else down. I can see people ruining their life by not working at uni, but being so happy about it drinking, having fun enjoying life. I enjoy my work, and whilst I pay this much for the chance to get my degree, and kick start my career I find out that I have to pay more the £.... or do I?

How do they do it? Going out all the time, doing lots of activities and doing their work. Personally I dont think they do. Thinking about things I dont think they do. Either their work suffers, they dont continue with the activities or their social life suffers. So why do I think I am special and I do everything? Because I believe I can! Is that so wrong, is that a stupid idea... a bridge to far?

Ok maybe I should re-organise my priorities, but my work is the most important thing. I should probably make sure that I have enough time to do everything. But then sleeping goes, food, friends. Friends? hold on - if I have enough time for everything why do I sit alone in my room. I have time to go out - I just dont. Why? Havent met the right people? Make them the right people - go out have fun, and friendships are formed. This brings me back to it, people come and go - "deal"

So what things must change - wel I dont know but over this xmas hols I will think it over. 2nd year blues - offically over.

A thought to leave with - an example why I need to change,
" You dont compliment anyone"
"But then when I do I really mean it..."
"True but do you not appriciate things/people enough to complement them more, or do the people around you not meet up to your expectations?"

I dont have an answer - I never do

PS.
Whatever you do/celebrate over this holiday period I hope you enjoy it, and that everyone has a Happy New Year!